Friday, 24 May 2013
Monday, 13 May 2013
Home (Part5)!
Once again this question of home occupies my mind. What is
home?
Recently I have been feeling homesick without knowing the
place that I feel homesick for. Someone told me that this is somehow the
perfect definition of homesickness; to not know where one belongs.
For quite some time I have been feeling “In between”, for
the past 3 ½ years I have not had a place as my base for more than 10 months at
a time. Knowing that this wont change before June 2014, I have had to revise my
definition of home.
For me right now home is embodied in people, cause it is not
the four walls around me that make me feel at ease, but the people who are
present my life. Of cause there is my “Heimat”, the place where I grew up and
where my parents still live, that will always be home, but at present moment
home is in particular one person who makes me feel homesick. The one I wish to
be beside and build a home with in the future.
Thus my feeling of home has become future plans, which are
built on presumptions and expectations of what is going to happen rather than a
present state of being. In this
way I bet high, as I am unaware of the cards being dealt, and it might mean
that I once again will have to look at the notion of home and ask myself what
it is and what it means to me.
Monday, 29 April 2013
Everything Related to Hurt
During my conversation with a French girl in which we were
taking about our work, I asked if she ever took photographs. She told me, that
the previous summer she had documented everything related to hurt. Something I
found really interesting in relation to her work on love. It was only a few
minutes later I realized, that she had in fact said everything related to heart
and had pronounced heart in a French way, leaving the ea sounding like a u.
I could not get the sentence out of my head. Everything
related to hurt. It somehow sound intriguing and to me much more interesting
and profound than everything related to heart. Therefore I decided to take it
on as a working title for a future project, that I at that point didn’t know
what was going to be.
What is hurt and what does it involve?
I find that most times we hurt ourselves through our
perception of the actions of other people, more than their actual intend to
hurt us.
What I mean by this is that hurt is often induced from
within, a negative value added to an action of another person.
If your lover fails to say he loves you, it hurts because
you want him to; if you cannot get over a past lover it isn’t because of him
but your own inability to let him go, hence you keep hurting yourself by
constantly reaffirming a love not reciprocated; if there is caused trouble in
paradise it is often because of misreading and wrong interpretations.
We create the hurt through our private language; we speak
towards others though they cannot hear us, thus hurt is dependent on someone
else and yet much more on our own expectations to this individual
In this performance I am exploring my private language, toward
various men in my life; by trying to speak my inner language out loud, my
perception of things that are not necessarily true.
I will be performing this, Saturday the 4th in
the “Direct Action” festival, a part of “The Month Of Performance Art Berlin”. In
case you are in the area you should come check it out.
Wednesday, 17 April 2013
It Only Blooms - Full Version!
Here is a chance for everyone to take a look inside my most recent work. Physically there only exists 5 copies, but I would like to share it with everyone who wants to see it. I realize that some can be tricky to read as it is upside down, but the idea is that you should be able to read it from both ways as it tell two different stories.
Monday, 15 April 2013
It Only Blooms!
For the past three month I have been working intensely on this project. The idea of doing something around this Søren Kierkegaard quote started last summer, but up until now it has been resting in the pile of unrealized ideas.
The book shows a blooming process through photographs, seasonal and of the singular flower. Along side is a love story, which is related to the emotional seasons of love. The book can be read from both sides, one side telling the story of him the other of her. The photographs has been taken a bit everywhere but most of them doing the past month. The realization of the book (printing, binding etc.) took me a couple of weeks work in the workshop.
This book project is my first, but it is safe to say it wont be my last.
The book shows a blooming process through photographs, seasonal and of the singular flower. Along side is a love story, which is related to the emotional seasons of love. The book can be read from both sides, one side telling the story of him the other of her. The photographs has been taken a bit everywhere but most of them doing the past month. The realization of the book (printing, binding etc.) took me a couple of weeks work in the workshop.
This book project is my first, but it is safe to say it wont be my last.
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